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_{and we carried our cross like a clover; we smoked cigarrettes and we lied, about the things we would feel when we were older. oh, god, what a fine waste of time. I miss you, are you comin' over?}

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_{and we carried our cross like a clover; we smoked cigarrettes and we lied, about the things we would feel when we were older. oh, god, what a fine waste of time. I miss you, are you comin' over?}

the purpose of the letter i sent you was not to attack you--it was to try to put my two cents in as your friend. i never expected anything else than to be your friend. i didn't expect anything more than youre kiss-free compant the night we made plans for you to sleep over. i was concerned about you and josh which is why i put so many of my own thoughts about your relationship with him into that letter. maybe i came on too strong and overstepped my boundries as a ...whatever i was. i'm not sure what i was to you or what i am anymore. i suppose i can understand if you want nothing to do with me. if you don't want to see me, talk to me, be alone in the same room with me anymore, whatever. somehow, someway, you've got to let me know. you can't just keep ignoring me like im not there without explanation. i can't say that i compltely regret what happend between us, because i dont. for a brief second there, i thought i was falling in love with you. i think we both got a littel carried away. i want to thank you for letting me share that side of me with you--there is no other girl i would've rather discovered these feelings i have about myself with than you. i dont want you to think you were my doormat--you know you mean way more to me than that--but i don't want to be treated like one either. im sorry that i have to keep writing to you like this, but honestly, im afraid that if i don't sit and think about what im going to say to you, that i might say somehting i regret. i hope you can understand that. all im asking for is closure. just tell me if you never want to see or speak to me again, and ill let this rest. again, im sorry if i overstepped my boundries and invaded you and josh's relationship. i was under the impression when i wrote that letter that you still wanted us to be friends, and as a friend, i was trying to let you know what id been thinking. apparently those aren't the circumstances anymore, so, im just trying to do the right thing and find out what my new boundries are.

i do miss you, though.

-anna

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if you walk away, i'll walk away.